Deb’s Journey…

November 13, 2013

Motion Sickness

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It’s been a rather overwhelming season in our lives that has lasted for the past five + years and promises to continue awhile longer.  Change is hard.  I like to know what’s coming, to plan for it and be prepared as much as possible.  I suppose that’s just a control thing.  But God keeps putting me through stuff that I cannot control, or truly prepare for, I just have to try to learn to trust Him in the midst of the chaos when I feel the movements but cannot see where we’re going.

Ian’s cancer journey was that way.  Grief has been that way.  Going on our mission trip to Honduras was that way and the adoption journey is that way too. God wants me to trust Him, to be completely dependent on Him while He takes me where He wants me to go.  I want to relax and trust, but sometimes I’m not really sure I know how…

Tom is a guy who loves adventure, he likes to travel where he hasn’t been, do new things.  He embraces it as a challenge and relishes the rush.

I am more of a home body.  I enjoy routine and order.  I find comfort and security in the known.  That doesn’t mean I never long for a change of scenery, but I want to “vacation” and not live there.

It’s been a complicated journey to get here and I keep wondering what God is doing and where He’s taking me.  I know He wants me to trust Him and I’m trying, really I am, but some days I get “motion sick” and wish there was a break I could pull to make the roller coaster stop.

I’ve read about jet pilots and the training they have to go through as they’re learning to fly.  Throwing up is pretty common at first then the body eventually gets desensitized and can handle the sudden changes of direction, they learn to roll with it and function at high levels even in the midst of it.

Maybe that’s what God is doing, putting me through flight school.  I guess I’ve always wanted to fly…and wanted to have little birdies and teach them to fly.  Maybe the first step is conquering motion sickness…God help me.

1 Comment »

  1. Hi there friend. It is good to learn that you and Tom want to adopt a child. Please know that I think you are a really sweet woman, just the way you are. Yes, indeed, you and Tom have lived through losing a sweet child which is something many of us pray will never happen to us. Maybe God is desiring to teach you AND Tom something…not just you. I love being home, I always have. However I did live over many, many miles as we were in the military for 20 years. There many “learning times” or ups and downs but all that just goes along with living please don’t beat up on yourself. Just thank God for each day He gives to you. He does have a plan for each of us and will show it to us as we faithfully follow Him. I pray God will comfort you and continue to cover you with His love. Take care of you my friend!

    Comment by Kay Burrus — November 13, 2013 @ 2:37 pm

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