Deb’s Journey…

November 4, 2009

HELP! I’m TALKING and I can’t SHUT UP!

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I admire people who have the ability to speak only words that have been fully thought through – perhaps even prayed through. They are what I like to call “internal processors” – they think before they speak. They are rare gems…and are generally thought to be wise…

Abraham Lincoln is quoted as saying…”Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt”.

“Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent, and discerning if he holds his tongue.” - Proverbs 17:28

IF...what a “big”, little word.  But alas, I am rarely silent.  I’m an “external processor” - I tend to think while talking which often gets me in trouble or at the very least embarrasses me which is why it makes sense for me to write because at least writing can be edited and revised.

Yesterday - throughout the entire day I shot my mouth off and did damage to those around me - something I’ve vowed not to do. I don’t want to run around “spitting shrapnel” at people…yet I keep doing what I don’t want to do which makes me feel wretched.

Scripture says it’s “out of the overflow of the heart that the mouth speaks” and generally I’m not even aware of all the “mess” that exists in my heart until it “overflows” out of my mouth…YUCK…frankly if that sort of thing is going to happen- who wants witnesses?

That is the “messy” part of human relationships…one little comment can cause a spark that ignites someone else’s “trash pile” and they go up in flames right in front of everyone.  I’ve witnessed it many times over the years in others - still, when it happens to ME, I’m shocked and dismayed. Mostly because I wasn’t really aware of the “trash pile” in the first place and now it’s flaming for everyone to see…how embarrassing…how humiliating…

I’m not overly surprised by other people’s trash really - people are messy. I shouldn’t be surprised by my own, I’m a mess too…but I am deeply saddened by that.  I wish I could walk as Eve did during her early life in the Garden…unveiled & unashamed - beautiful…to be known fully and to know others the same way…to live in a state of complete grace without the pain, ugliness & indignity of sin.  Sin messes up everything.

” A friend is one to whom I may pour out all the contents of my heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away.”- Arabian Proverb

“A friend is someone with whom I may be sincere, before whom I may think aloud” - Ralph Waldo Emerson

How great would it be to enjoy that kind of freedom?  To joyously come together- throw all our trash into one huge pile then let God’s love- a consuming fire sweep through to cleanse & refine while we dance around enjoying the “Bond-fire”?

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